You, Again

Dried tissues, cold wet towel
Not fighting cholera
The heart that mends itself.

Memories and you
Times together, too.

My heart sewed over your spot
My body remembers
What my heart forgot.

She forgot how to love.
She forgot how to trust.
She forgot how to hurt.

I never told you
I never thought I had to.

My heart used to say things to yours
She heard the answers.
She heard the answers, too early.

Too late, I said. Now.

You say, never.
Never again, I say.
Try all you want, I say.
I will try everyday, you say.
It doesn't work, I say.

So you try everyday.
And what good is it?
I still feel nothing more than nostalgia.
I remember why I loved.
I don't love.

Don't look at my eyes like they are attached to my soul.
Don't look at my body like it holds a beating heart.

I don't understand your answers, you say.
I don't listen to your heart anymore, I say.
I'm tired, I say.
I don't trust, I say.

I don't want to hurt you, you say.
You say like you mean it.
You say like you want me forever.
You say like you can reopen the wound.

I'm not wounded, I say.
But you want to cut me to make it hurt again.
You want to twist my heart to face the right way, again.

About face, but it won't hurt.
It's only blood and muscle.